Research and experimentation
MasterMaster and I are bookish types. So when we began to play together, we naturally wanted to do research. He gave me some books to read—The Forked Tongue, Modern Primitives, the Two Knotty Boys books— and I found some on my own—SM 101, The New Bottoming Book. These books taught me some basics: build slow, safety issues, the two finger rule, etc. There is a lot I had already tried, or thought about, or seen pictures of before, but the books helped me to open up and reconsider things I hadn’t thought I’d wanted. They also introduced me to new things, as did MasterMaster. As MasterMaster and I have experimented with our new and old fantasies over these past months, I have learned a good deal about what kind of bottom I am. Mostly, the kind of bottom I am is the kind of person I am: I contain multitudes. I can be a brat, pushing back and squirming out of my ropes; I can be docile and obedient; wide-eyed and innocent; and I can switch over and be a fierce and sadistic top. My favorite is when I get deep into my submissive mind space and get really quiet for a while. And then I start laughing uncontrollably. The harder MasterMaster smacks his belt against my ass, the harder I laugh. He seems to take it as a challenge and the belt comes down even harder, until I squeal from the pain. It is hard to figure out what I want when I want all sorts of things. What is great is that MasterMaster is the same way. We both like to play and experiment, to have adventures and be spontaneous. Mostly, we both want to have fun. And oh boy do we ever. –Minx
